“If you are still struggling with an eating disorder, remember that while your eating disorder is not a choice, recovery is. Recovery is the most important decision I have ever made for myself. However, it was not a singular choice—every day, I have to choose recovery. Sometimes, I still have to force myself to eat, even if I don’t want to, even if I don’t feel hungry when my body needs food. I want you to know that the choice does get easier. One day, the painful years you spent trapped in a blur of bathroom scales and counting will be just a vivid dream-like memory, not a daily reality. One day, you will become the nurturing and caring parent that your body always wished for. One day, the waitress will ask if you want dessert and you will say yes and you will eat the best chocolate cake of your life and it will taste so much better than skinny ever, ever felt.”
“coming of age” books and movies are so stupid like being a teenager isn’t about having sex and going to parties it’s about staring out your car window after hanging out with your old best friends who you haven’t seen in months and realizing that you aren’t actually friends anymore and that your childhood has been well and truly dead since you were thirteen
